11 Days After... (contiuned)

   Because I was so tired last night, I could not finish my post, so I will finish it off right now.

   I feel like I've been talking about work too much so enough talking about work this time. I actually do have something else to talk about other than work so it's all good! haha.

   I finally got to go bowling with Jessica last week. I've been wanting to go with her so bad, mostly because I wanted to see how pros play and what it feels like to actually bowl with them. It was absolutely amazing. Every throw she made looked beautiful. It was awesome. We played 5 games and I beat her once! I was pretty proud of myself for that haha. I had a lot of fun that day. We got to bowl for free too so that made it a lot better! haha.

   I still have not heard from Cori yet. I honestly have no idea what happened to her. I've been calling her and texting her almost every day, but she hasn't phoned me or texted me back at all. I'm not trying to be a dick or anything but I've moved on because I don't really think it's worth it. I had fun with her, but obviously something happened, and I really hope that it's nothing serious, so I decided to move on. I still text her once a while though, see if she'd answer it or not.

   I did meet another amazing girl. Her name is Sam, but I'll talk about all that later. I just don't feel like talking about all this right now, I don't know why. So ya, I'll save this up for tomorrow.

11 Days After...

   It's been 11 days since my last post. I remember I used to blog every day, but it seems like I've been pretty busy with work lately and also, I've been pretty lazy as well. My days have been really repetitive. I get up in the morning, go to work, come home, eat, then go on Facebook, then sleep. This cycles over and over again. So I haven't had much time to have a social life or even write a blog. Well, I guess I could've blogged but I didn't haha.

   So, let's talk about work. Last couple weeks has been horrible. I loved working at AMJ Campbell, but what I had to deal with at work for last couple weeks made me change my mind about the job. Mostly, it's the supervisors that makes me really mad. They'd yell at me for no particular reason, and they don't work at all. It's really discouraging when you see them like that when you work your ass off. I had a job to do at Edson last friday, and that's when my frustration level really increased. It took us 20 hours to finish the job because we only had 2 trucks and 6 people, 3 were from Prime, when we needed 1 more truck and 3 more people. We had to make 2 trips, and the best part was that all 3 Prime guys didn't work at all. If there were more people from our company it would've been a a lot shorter shift. I did drive a truck though, so that was good.

   Apparently, I was supposed to work the next morning at 7:30. Are you kidding me?! I didn't get home from Edson till about 3:30 am and I'm supposed to work at 7:30?! No thanks. I did sleep in because I was so tired. As soon as I woke up, I called Todd, who is a commercial manager, and he told me that it's not a big deal that I missed my shift and asked me to just have a day off. Awesome, but nope. This didn't really end well.

   I go in for work on Monday, and Tim, a household manager, wanted to talk to me. I honestly had no idea what he wanted to talk to me about because I rarely, almost never, talk to him but I did have a bad feeling about it, and I was right. Tim just started yelling at me for not coming in on saturday. There was no way I could've made it through the day even if I came in for work that day. I was told that it was supposed to be a 18000 lb load. That would've taken us at least 10 hours. Ya I'll pass. I'm not a veteran mover yet, so I'm not used to working that late and then come in for work 3 hours later. I was also told that one of the Prime guys from that same job at Edson came in for us the next day too and Tim was telling me how sad it is to see a Prime guy there to do the job and not his employee. First of all, technically, I'm not his employee, I'm Todd's employee. I don't do household unless Todd wants me to. Secondly, I was the driver that day. While I was driving back to the shop, those Prime guys slept all the way. They got 2 more hours of sleep then I did. I swear to god, Tim has no heart at all whatsoever. Douchebag.

    The nightmare at AMJ did not end at all. There was a little conflict going on on tuesday between one of the drivers and the supervisor. The supervisor flipped out on one of the drivers because he made a wrong turn and got lost and was almost late for the job. In his defense, he was never given the address to our job site. What the hell, they can't do that. I know it's driver's responsibility to know where they are supposed to go, but isn't the supervisor supposed to tell us where we are going though in the first place? Those two guys were just screaming at each other and I really felt bad for the driver. It's not his fault and he's getting yelled at by the supervisor. Things got really bad at AMJ with supervision. Really bad.

   I was late for work for 2 days in a row. Wednesday wasn't so bad. I was only about 5 minutes late. Thursday was really bad though. There was an accident on Yellowhead and I was stuck there for about an hour. Luckily I was only half an hour late to get to the job site and I was with nice supervisor so it wasn't so bad, but I felt terrible. I absolutely hate doing something wrong because it makes me feel so guilty and I really hate it.

   Today wasn't so bad but the morning was terrible. I drove one of the trucks again but then they didn't tell me where we are going again. I couldn't follow them either because they were driving so fast. I had to drive a truck with a manual transmission and I'm still really not used to it yet. I got in trouble for getting lost and all that. It is partially my fault but it's their fault too. They never told me nothing and they wouldn't wait up for me to catch up? What kind of supervision is that? 

   Things changed a lot at work lately. Supervisors do not respect the other workers at all. They joke around too much, they slack off too much, and they yell at the workers too much. I get that it's their job to do that but still, things got to change here. Because, we all are getting frustrated with them, and make us mad all the time. They got to actually change things around. I can't stand it anymore.

   I am so tired right now, there's still a lot more to talk about all the things that's been happening in last 11 days but I'm going to call it a day and go to bed now. I'll finish this up tomorrow.

Recovery

   It's almost been a week since I last heard from Cori. I don't even know what to do anymore. I am still really worried about her, but at the same time, it still feels like she's not interested in me anymore. I don't want anyone to think I'm a creeper, but I've phoned, and texted her about 4-5 times a day, and I even went to her house 3 times. Yet, I failed to find her, or even hear from her. What is going on?! I've been talking to Rico, my supervisor from work, about all this, and even he thought it was weird. Certain things just don't click together. WTF!!!!!

   Honestly, I want to keep searching for the answer to all this until I know what's really going on. It will be really tough and time consuming and I'll be pretty depressed and worried for a while but I would really like to know the answer. I've learned my lesson. It's better to know the answer, even though there's a possibility that things won't work out the way I wanted, but at least I would know that, right? I can't keep wondering what it could've been like, you know what I mean? 

   There's a slight chance that I'll be going down to Calgary for work tomorrow, I doubt it though, but if I do, I really want to stop at her house on the way back and see if anybody is there. If not, I'll stop by on the way home from work. I'm on the verge of just giving up on her, but I can't keep doing that anymore. There will be no giving up in my life anymore. I just hope that she's okay. I hope nothing serious happened to her.

   So, I'm going to be a driver at work pretty soon. That means I'll get a raise! I'll be getting paid around $17!!! How awesome is that? I did drive some of the trucks quite a lot lately and I feel pretty good about it, although, I still need to practice. Feeling good doesn't cut it. So ya, I'm most likely to talk to my manager tomorrow and go from there I guess. Oh I love my job. I'll be a trucker soon!!

Empty Feelings in My Heart

It's already been almost 2 days since I last talked to Cori. You have no idea how much I miss her and worries about her right now. Everyday I wake up and the first thing pops up in my head is her. I miss the early morning text from her which always waked me up and just talking throughout the day all the time. I am really worries that she might be stuck in the hospital again. If she is, I hope she's okay. I really do. I'm working at the U of A right now and I'm really tempted to go to the hospital right now and find her.

I also got another feeling that she's not really into me anymore. Girls do that a lot. I really hope that's not the case though. I would really hate to lose her because I like her too much. I always hated when someone was to attached to me. It's funny because I'm doing that now. Funny how life works doesn't it?

One Step Closer

I haven't blogged much lately mostly because of work and because of that I've been extremely tired. It's already half way through the week and it's been a tremendous week. Full of new experience!

I was scheduled to work at Capital Power Corp this week from Monday to Wednesday, which is today, and there werewolf ups and downs but I got to say it was a great experience. First of all, I got a little taste of what it feels like to work in a office which was pretty cool because I always wondered what it feels like to work like that. It wasn't as good as I thought it was going to be, but I know what it feels like now.

The office is actually located on Jasper ave and I've never really been down here before so it was nice to go to places I haven't been to before, especially the City Centre Mall. I love Jasper ave. I've been stuck in Sherwood Park for years and it's nice to get a little taste of city life. I hate driving down here though. Narrow roads, heavy traffic. Oh well, what can you do?

My supervisors are kind of dicks though. Well, was I supposed to expect anything better from them? Wherever you go, they will always pick on the new kid, which is me. So ya, they've been picking on me all day for past couple days but today wasn't so bad at all. I did all the jobs I was supposed to do and they were pretty impressed. YES!!! I haven't got beaked all day so I'm pretty happy about that.

I hung out with Cori for lunch on Monday and since then, I have not met her. I have been texting her quite a lot until last night. She did say she had a test this morning so I assumed that she was studying for it but she still didn't text me back today. Well, I have a feeling that she's not really interested in me anymore. I can tell by her texts. Who know? I might be wrong. I was wrong last time, it turned out she was in the hospital that day, and who knows that's probably why she hasn't texted me back. I hope I'm wrong about her feelings because I am falling for her and I really do not want to lose her. She's exactly the type of girl I've been looking for and wanting to date. Please Cori!!! Text me back!!!

Find Your Love

   I'm sure you all know that I've been on this dating website for quite a while now. I think it's been about 2-3 weeks. Just as I was about to give up on it, I found someone. Whenever I messaged someone, a lot of them actually ignored, or when they did reply, the conversation would go absolutely nowhere. So I guess that's why I didn't really care anymore. Anyways, so this girl actually messaged me first, and all she said was 'hey there,' but I don't know why, I had a really good feeling about her. She was pretty good looking, and most of all, she was older unlike my ex girlfriend who was 15. Anyways, I think our conversations went pretty great. I mean, she didn't stop messaging me so I'm assuming I didn't do too bad haha. After few days, we started texting each other too so I guess that's a good sign.

   I met her for the first time on last wednesday. It was kind of unexpected meeting. I did ask her to hang out that night, but I had to work, and she had to study for her exam. Well, I did really want to meet her, because she seemed like a really cool girl. At around 9:30 ish, she texted me and asked me if I still wanted to hang out. Of course my answer was yes. So we met up and walked around for a little. We almost got eaten alive by the mosquitos, but I didn't care. Then we just sat down in my car and just talked. I had a lot of fun. It felt like we had a lot in common, especially our personalities. I thought everything went well that night, except, I was still wearing my work clothes and I smelled like shit. It would've been a lot better if I showered at least haha. 

   I hung out with her again the next day. Twice actually. She was hanging out with her friend at West Edmonton Mall in the afternoon, and I just happened to be getting off from work at that time so I stopped by and hung out with her. Again, I was still in my work clothes. How embarrassing. I didn't really talk much at that time, because I was really tired, and the work was terrible, but I tried not to show that. We went to this one Chinese bakery store and bought a couple slices of cake. I had a lot of fun that time too. It was better than the night before.

   She asked me what my impression of her was on the way home, and I told her that I really like her and I thought she was cute. Then I asked the same thing, and she told me that I was tall, funny and cute. I was so happy when I read it. I had a huge smile on my face for hours.

   Later that night, we hung out again. We walked around again, but there weren't many mosquitos so that was good. I don't even know what we talked about, but it went really well. Although, I felt kind of bad once a while because I didn't really talk much. I do talk quite a lot lately, but I guess I was just a little nervous because I don't want to mess this up, and I was a little tired at that point. Then we went for some McDonald's which was pretty awesome too haha.

   Friday was even better. I went to Beaumont, that's where she lives, to meet her, but I ended up at her house. Her house was so big!! She told me that her parents built that house from ground to top. That's pretty sick. It was definitely one of the coolest and biggest house I've been to so far. Anyways, we started off with couple drinks, and Cori, that's her name, got pretty drunk after one drink haha. Well, she is a lightweight so that's normal I guess haha. We talked about sex quite a lot that night. I don't usually talk about sex with girls often so I thought that was pretty cool. I was pretty horny at one point and I really wanted to have sex with her, but it was way too early for that. It would've been nice but I can wait. Later that night, we decided to watch a movie, and that went pretty well lol. I fell asleep on her shoulder after about 5 minutes into the movie. Oops. Overall, it was an amazing night for me. I don't know about Cori though. It did seem like she had fun, but then again, I felt bad because I didn't talk much at all. I went down to Beaumont right after I got home from work. 

   A lot of people say online dating never works out well, but I think this is going pretty well. I want this to work to be honest. I really don't want to mess this up. Cori is a really cool and a unique girl. She's the type of girl I've always wanted to date. And I thought I was her type too until today. She hasn't replied my text today. Either she's really busy, or she doesn't want me anymore. I hope she was busy. I really hope I didn't fuck this up, because I'm slowly falling for her.

Canada Day

   It's July 1st 2011, Canada's 144th birthday. Awesome lol. Everybody is probably getting hammered today but not I. I am scheduled to work tomorrow at 7:30 am so there will be no drinking for me. Instead, I will be going to the Edmonton Capitals baseball game in a few hours. I've never been to a baseball game before so this should be very interesting haha. I was supposed to go see the fireworks with Jessica today but this will be better and plus there will be fireworks after the game so ya haha.

   I am unbelievably tired right now though. I worked 13.5 hours last night. First 4.5 hours of yesterday's shift wasn't bad. We just unpacked all the boxes that was already moved. When we got back to the shop, I was hoping that there wasn't another job. Dispatch people called me and said I have another job at 1. I probably mentioned on my last post, but there was only me and the driver so I thought it was going to be an easy job. Nope. We unloaded 8000+ lb of load. Surprisingly though, it only took us 9 hours. For two people unloading that kind of weight and load, it's pretty decent. So ya there you go, I had two 10+ hr shift in a row. I'm already at 38 hours for the week. And with just 2 more hours on saturday, I'll have 40+ hours for the week. Finally I'm getting decent hours, which means my paycheque will look really good.

   Finally work has been consistent and stable and I hope it stays like that till the end. It seems like I can finally pay for school next year.That's if I get my final admission.