Ever since I moved back in with my parents, things have changed quite a bit. I'm getting along with my parents even more, and I've been working quite a lot, and started to make more friends, especially from work. But on the negative side, I really didn't and still don't really get to see my old friends, which is quite unfortunate. But overall, life has been pretty good. I can say I've been pretty happy, until now.
I haven't really seen or talk to Sam lately. I see her about every 2 weeks, and I rarely text her now so I really don't got a clue what she's been up to lately. Anyways, I was on Facebook few days ago, and I found out that she's now dating this guy. I knew she was seeing this guy but I honestly didn't think she was going to start dating her. I may have overreacted to that a little bit, but I was very upset and definitely was not too happy about that, and here's why.
There was one time when I went to the bar with her on one of my days off, and we had a little talk. She told me that she still kind of likes me but she said we could never start a relationship because of what we've been through when I moved out. I didn't really care when she told me that at the time, but now that I think about it, I wonder, what exactly changed? Yes, we lived together for how many weeks but just like she said, we still never really got to see each other. I was with her mom more than her. I honestly have no idea what changed and why that stopped us from starting a relationship. After that day, I didn't really talk to her mostly because work got really busy then she texted me one night and started talking about how she's been seeing this guy how many times that week and whatnot. I still have feelings for her and obviously that made me a little upset and I guess she kind of got that from my texts. Then out of nowhere, she told me that she misses me. And of course I had to tell her that I miss her too and I really did. So up till then, there were a lot of questions that needed to be answered but I was too busy with work to actually care about it. Oh by the way, I ended up getting 125 hrs in 2 weeks at that time. Pretty impressive hey? My paycheque looked amazing.
I ended up with 2 tickets to one of the World Juniors hockey game few days before Christmas and I decided to take Sam to the game with me. And of course I had to ask her about the guy she was seeing. She told me she's not really sure if she wants to date him or not. I can't remember why I kind of stopped listening after that.
New Year's Eve, I went to the bar with her and her friend that night, and she asked me if I'm planning on moving out again any time soon because she's thinking about moving out and she wanted me as her roommate. I didn't know what to say so I think I said yes at the time. If she asks me again, I doubt that she will but if she does, my answer would have to be no this time.
So this is what's been going on between me and her lately. It's really not that much actually. From all this though, it seemed like she was still kind of interested in me and would maybe consider starting a relationship with me, but seeing that she's already dating someone, I guess I was wrong. What makes me really upset the most is that back in summer when we were still seeing each other, she didn't want to date me at the time because it takes her a long time to get comfortable with a guy and all that, but she's only been seeing this guy for not even a month, and they are already dating? It doesn't make any sense. Was that all lies then? Do you think maybe she said all that to me because she didn't want to date me but didn't want to tell me that at the time? I don't know. Do you think she misled me by telling me all that stuff lately? I think so. I am very hurt by that. I really am.
